December 18th, 2010

nexus

[NTGC] Balance on the Earth

Title: Balance on the Earth
Characters: Nexus, Fourth, Drannor, Jakob Col, Urbanus, Underfoot, all the nexi
Word Count: ~3000
Summary: Nexus seeks to improve zir relationship with the nexi.
Notes: This takes place during the five-day planning period in adventure 58. The title is from "Green (Welcome to the World)," from Nexus' FST.

N.B. I am trying something I ought to have done a long time ago, and that is using progressive gender-neutral pronouns for Nexus.

I didn't do this before for a host of reasons, such as not knowing these pronouns well myself, not thinking I 'should' ask other people to use them, and most of all, thinking that Nexus/this game existed outside of real-world power structures. To make a very long story very short, that is not true; there is no such thing as a dehistoricized fantasy world when the fantasy world itself is created by people who are implicated in real-world power structures. I thought I was addressing anti-oppression by a) avoiding the default of making robots and/or fighters male, b) avoiding the assumption that a female player must play a female character. But in thinking that I only had to address two sides in a gender binary, I thought only of the sexism I personally face and not the transphobia that is equally heinous. Calling a person 'it' - even when the person is a character who, within the fantasy world, claims the power to create zir own meaning for that word - has harmful real-world implications. Choosing to ignore these implications meant prioritizing my recreational comfort over anti-oppression, and that is unequivocally wrong.

I could go on, both about what I really intended and how bad I feel ... but the point is not to get wanky over myself, but rather address and fix the actual problem. I am sorry I made this mistake at all, and I'm sorry the correction comes late.

For what it's worth, here are the pronouns I have chosen to use:
Zie hits Garagos.
Garagos hits zir.
Zir sword is Unfettered.
That sword is zirs.
Nexus tries not to get zirself killed.

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